Love Yourself

I was praying yesterday when the words of Jesus entered my mind about loving others as ourself.  I started thinking about how I love myself.  When I have to use the restroom I wait until the last minute, I push the drive to an empty tank and my tank is totally full.  My parents told me this wasn’t good for me but I do it anyway.  I usually only go to the doctor when the pain is sever and or doesn’t go away after a month or six.  I get splinters and cuts and unless they are deep, they don’t get washed out until shower time.  However I do shower every day, sometimes twice a day.  Cleanliness is next to godliness?? I condemn myself often and rarely show grace to myself.  The more I thought about how I loved myself I thought; “I hope I don’t love others like that?”  Do I only show them care when their lives are really messed up?  Do I show them relief in their life only when I’m ready to stop my agenda and meet their needs.  Do I spend time with people once a day or even 2 times a day.  I don’t know, but I’m going to start monitoring how I love myself more cuz if that is how I’m loving people it’s no wonder I have no friends.